I think DrmChsr0 got it absolutely right: I don’t particularly enjoy this anymore. DS said a little more than I wanted him to. I don’t like to blame just a single person, but maybe that’s all it really was — a one Owen Saturnine. At least that’s what I think the S stands for; I never got a chance to know.
First CJ gets booted without too much reason, and I was left in an awkward state being able to access things and read stressful discussions in a community my admin could no longer enter. But I wasn’t just going to quit right away and succumb to the pressure and abuse. I’m optimistic on the surface; I thought it could resolve in a few days, especially with the outcries of other ABCers.
But there was nothing but silence in response. I finally found the courage to say something to Owen, but it was like shouting to the air without anybody around to acknowledge. Trees falling in a forest but no one around to hear them, and so I had no voice.
It didn’t get better over time, and with all theotherblogposts floating around, I finally told myself (with some encouragement from CJ, too, which surprised me since she didn’t want everything just to end … but she understood what paths were best) that this just won’t ever work out. And I’m far too busy with the end of the semester approaching not to have any fun when I try to write about what I love and enjoy.
So it’s off to research paper and final exam land and goodbye ABC and blogging. Maybe I’ll come back when this all blows over. (And I get some A’s.)